It’s all about the relationship

Recently I’ve signed up for a couple of online dating sites.  And on these sites I’ve had to answer questions and describe what kind of a partner I would be…   And of course I answered bragging about how I really care and work hard at a relationship, and want to be close to my…

Why do I feel threatened?

Recently I’ve had a couple of recent penny dropping,  AHA revelations….   that I think are going to have a massive impact.   Neither of them are ideas that were completely new to me, but, suddenly, somehow it clicked that this is where I should be focusing my energies. So in this post I will…

Just do it…

(I feel I should note here that I am going through my drafts folder and trying to finish off unfinished blog posts.  So if any of my non-existent readers happens to be wondering why I’m posting so many different posts on such varied topics, all at the same time, that is why.   I have…

Online Dating Blues

Well…   a little while ago I decided to join an online dating site.   It was never really my intention to start dating (or even chatting to) anyone right away.  I just wanted to use it as a way to keep my eyes open for Mr Right.  (Not that I believe that there’s only…

Focusing my Qi

Qi – Chinese for spiritual Energy I’m reading a book with my son set in Ancient China about dragons and dragon keepers.  There is a lot in it about Qi and focusing your qi…  in the book, once she has practised and learned, focusing her Qi gives her magical and unnatural powers, but qi is…

When?

Tears.  Tears for absolutely no reason. When?  When will my life and my head feel calm and relaxed?  When will I feel like I’ve got it all together?  When will I feel at peace with myself and my life.  When will every day not be such a struggle?  When will I go to bed happy…

Looking Forward to Life

For far too long I have just been trudging through, trying to get through each day.  Partly because I feel like I have so little control over what goes on in my day, my creative and awesome parent plans are always thwarted by my children, who always have other things that they want to do…

A difficult weekend

It’s been a difficult weekend.  Which is a bit of a shock and disappointment because I really thought that I was getting a lot better.   I had plans to write a post about my improved mental health, and another about how, often now in my 3 person family, it feels like we’re all just…

Positivity

So following my recent post ‘believing in myself,’  I’ve been thinking about the importance of focusing on the things that I’m getting right as a parent.  The parenting moments that I am proud of.  The things that make me feel good about myself as a parent. My children’s daily tears, whinges, whines and accusations, they…

This Feeling

what is this feeling?  It’s not happy, but its not sad….   maybe discontented….   glass half full….   just not there yet.   I’m just, still not where I want to be.  I’m not really sure anymore where I do want to be. Its a feeling of dissatisfaction and unmet needs.  But I have…

It’s time to read my own blog.

I’ve been feeling lately that I just write and write in this blog, and then I almost immediately forget what I have written.  I come up with new strategies, mindsets, and mantras to help me become a better parent,  and once I have written them, my mind is at ease because I feel that I…