When?

Tears.  Tears for absolutely no reason. When?  When will my life and my head feel calm and relaxed?  When will I feel like I’ve got it all together?  When will I feel at peace with myself and my life.  When will every day not be such a struggle?  When will I go to bed happy…

Another Rambly Train of Thought

  Am I stuck in this crazy cycle because of my past trauma of being in an emotionally abusive relationship.  So when my son is disrespectful and demanding ….   I automatically take on an angry defensive role, rather than a teaching and mothering role. Determination. I can surely fix this if I met perceived…

Rambly trains of thought…..

In three years time my son will be in high school….   seriously….?  I still can’t get over the fact that he’s not a cuddly bubbly bouncy toddler any more!! The years are just flying by. I have a window of opportunity.   A very small window. If I blink I will miss it. I…

I write therefore I am

Seriously…    I still have no readers…  HEEELLLOOOOO!!!  Is there anybody out there??? I just feel like writing tonight, even though I don’t really have anything in particular to say.  And even though I have several unfinished posts waiting to be finished….   that just seems like too much work….  so here I am writing…

So what am I going to do with a blog?

I couldn’t sleep last night – I was so excited and nervous about having started a blog.  I couldn’t stop thinking about what my next post should be about, and what sort of direction and theme do I want my blog to take.  Then I started fretting about how much personal detail of my life should I…

Putting myself out there….

I’m a little scared as I write this and start my own blog, for all the world to see.  But I’m determined to jump right in and not over think it too much or let my perfectionism take over.  I an introvert with social anxiety issues, and putting myself out there is a scary thing….