what is this feeling? It’s not happy, but its not sad…. maybe discontented…. glass half full…. just not there yet. I’m just, still not where I want to be. I’m not really sure anymore where I do want to be.
Its a feeling of dissatisfaction and unmet needs. But I have no idea what those needs are or how to meet them. I scroll through my facebook newsfeed looking for inspiration… something that might fill the hole…. but I just get frustrated as I scroll through and realise that obviously nothing in my newsfeed will fill that empty hole.
The kids are in bed and its time for my (very limited) me-time. I could watch some Japanese Drama… and then feel like I wasted my precious me time on TV. Or I could do something more productive/creative, and then feel hard done by because I didn’t get a chance to chill out.
I think I’ll try meditating….
I have a strong feeling there will be tears… I can feel them already…..