Am I stuck in this crazy cycle because of my past trauma of being in an emotionally abusive relationship. So when my son is disrespectful and demanding …. I automatically take on an angry defensive role, rather than a teaching and mothering role.
I can surely fix this if I met perceived threats with a determination to be loving and kind…….. Often I did this with my ex husband…. I just made a decision to be kind even though he was being a jerk. But I didn’t do that all the time, I couldn’t have done it all the time.
I feel like time is running out for me to save my son…….. I need to be a better parent to him now. It can’t wait.
I just need to relax…. and not freak out. I need confidence that I am doing ok. and my son is doing ok.
And possibly the most important thing… I need to get enough sleep… so on that note, I’m going to bed!